IVF Cycle Cancelled :(

I ended up having my appointment yesterday instead of today, only to receive bad news one day sooner than I would have.  My ultrasound showed two functional cysts in my right ovary, and one very small one in my left ovary.  Last week they thought there had only been one in each ovary, but the two in my right ovary were overlapping and it was hard to see.  Because the cysts are giving off estrogen, my IVF cycle has been cancelled. 

For lack of better words, this sucks! It is already so frustrating that we have to pursue IVF when there are women who throw their newborns in the garbage, and crackheads that get pregnant every time they have sex.  The fact that we’re up against more setbacks and issues, really makes me wonder “why us?!” Why can’t we be the couple that gets pregnant the first month they try? Why do we have to pay thousands and thousands of dollars, and still have no guarantee that we will have a baby at the end of the emotional rollercoaster? I’m sick of being patient; I’m sick of hearing it will all work out, and I’m sick of people telling me that it will be worth it in the end.  WHEN is the happy ending?!

Now, that I’ve gotten my complaining out of the way, here are the next steps.  I have to wait for my period to arrive and start a new cycle.  I hoping it gets here in the next few weeks, my doctor said it just depends on the person, but usually it won’t be more than a few days late, even after taking Lupron.  As soon as I get my period, I will go in and have new baseline tests done (usually on cycle day 3).  The baseline will include blood tests to check and make sure all my levels are where they should be, and another ultrasound.  After my baseline, I will not do anything again until cycle day 22 when I will go in and have my progesterone levels checked.  This is checked to make sure that I ovulated.  After that appointment (assuming my levels are where they want them), I will officially begin my IVF cycle and begin taking Lupron injections again.  The difference in this past cycle and the next one is that I will not be starting with birth control.  The doctor said that most of the time, this resolves the issue, and I won’t see the functional cysts again.  Here’s to hoping that I can at least make it to the stimulation medication phase on my next cycle. 

Because Anthony will be starting SERE school in a few weeks (survival school where he won’t have any contact with the world for 3 weeks), we’re going to freeze his sperm next week.  He should be done with school by the time we’ll need his sperm, but he won’t be able to continue his HCG injections while he’s gone.  The HCG injections are supposed to improve his sperm, so it’s best that we freeze now, just in case. 

While I’m waiting for Aunt Flow to arrive, Jenn and I are going to Nashville! I am allowing myself a weekend of caffeine and a few alcoholic beverages.  In addition, I may decide to exercise, lay out in the hot sun, or take a steamy bath…all things that I’m not allowed to do during my IVF cycle!

Thanks for listening; Lots of love!!