Stim Day Six

Today was stim day six, and the first appointment to check on my follicles.  I was super nervous all week that we’d go in and they’d tell us that I was responding too quickly (mature eggs take at least 8 days of stims), or that I wasn’t responding at all.  I was elated when the nurse practitioner said I was right where I should be!  She counted 10 sizeable follicles in my right ovary, and 8 in my left.  She said others could possibly catch up, but the 18 are looking good.  Another nurse practitioner (my favorite) walked in during the ultrasound, and said “You’re doing so good, Girl!”  Anthony grabbed my hand at that moment, and we were both filled with happiness.  You would have thought we were looking at a baby on that ultrasound screen, not just a bunch of follicles that may be eggs.

After our appointment, I got the call that my blood work came back good as well; my progesterone was .8, and my estradiol was 647.  I was instructed to continue on my current dose of meds tonight, and tomorrow night.  My next appointment is Sunday morning in Birmingham.  We normally go to Montgomery for appointments, but they’re closed on weekends, so we’ll be leaving our house at 4:30am on Sunday to make the trip to Birmingham!   

We’ve just about mastered the stim meds! We have the mixing down, and Anthony has become a pro in making sure he gets all of the medicine into the syringes, with absolutely nothing left in the little medicine jar (this is a very complicated task!).  I have many bruises on my tummy, but most of them don’t hurt.  I am just starting to notice bloating, but I did eat a huge dinner, so I’m not sure I can blame it all on the meds!  I’m expecting that the bloating will continue, and worsen over the next few days as my follicles and ovaries get larger.

Coming into this, I was scared to death, and thought there was no way I would be able to do all of these injections.  It’s odd to think now that they have become more of a nuisance, than a fear.  I think the most difficult part of IVF is that you have so little control over the entire process, and the outcome.  You can do everything you’re told, but no matter how perfectly you do them, you cannot control how your body reacts.  Each milestone means so much, and makes you so proud, but you are immediately left with the next waiting period.  You leave every appointment with a new sense of uncertainty, with no way of guaranteeing that things won’t go haywire by the next checkup.  You just have to keep hoping, believing, and praying that it’s going to work out.  That this time, it’s your turn to be blessed with a baby.

This song has been on repeat this week…

Randy Houser- In God’s Time

In God's time
A million years might only be a single day
And everything He does gets done His own way
In God's time

And in God's time
You'll find that certain someone you've been praying for
And they'll be everything you dreamed of and a little more
In God's time

Oh, but no one knows
Not you or me
It might be tomorrow or it might never be
Oh, but don't lose faith
Put it in His hands
'Cause it might be that He might have a bigger plan
Than you had in mind
Miracles happen
In God's time

And in God's time
You'll finally get the chance to hold your baby girl
And all the sudden everything'll make sense in this crazy world
In God's time

Oh, but no one knows
Not you or me
It might be tomorrow or it might never be
Oh, but don't lose faith
Put it in His hands
'Cause it might be that He might have a bigger plan
Than you had in mind
Miracles happen
In God's time

And In God's time
You go to sleep and wake up with wings and learn to fly
And you finally meet your loved ones on the other side
In God's time